Welcome to "My Story"!  After reading all about Awareology, I'll bet you can't wait to hear how I arrived at all of this, can you?  Hummm…. Where to begin?  Stories are all unique as to where they decide to begin... like the movies, for example. Most movies start right in the middle of life happening for someone or something. They set the stage, if you will. So, I guess I should “set the stage” for my story... right?

I will begin my story like this: I was in another state visiting relatives. I had planned to go back to my home state to handle some things and leave my wife there to spend more time with her family. I had been having a feeling of some pressure just below my rib cage, right in the center of my chest. I had expressed this discomfort to one of my wife’s family members who was a head nurse at a local county hospital. The pressure feeling had been going on for a couple of weeks, so she suggested I run by the hospital on the way out of town, and she would run a CT scan to see if they saw anything.

I got in my car that morning after that relative had already gone to work... We will call her “Jen” so I can give her a name. I was running a wee bit late getting started. As I left their drive, my pressure feeling was very resident, so even though it was going to cause me to be later arriving back in my home state, I had a strong gut feeling that I should go by Jen’s hospital and get that CT scan done. I guess the Universe was setting the course for something that would certainly change my life! So reluctantly, I went by her hospital, and she was surprised to see me actually show up. Like most Americans, we don’t want to do things that are going to take us away from our rat race and cause us to be behind with what we have to do... if you know what I mean?  

THE HOSPITAL VISIT:

She ran the scan.  Then I had to wait for the results. It took a little bit of time, but later both her and another doctor whom I didn’t know came into my room. My guts hurt because I could tell from that gut feeling that it wasn’t good news. Jen said, "We found a four-inch mass, but it is probably just a fatty tumor which can be easily removed."

I knew better. I knew what it was. She tried to comfort me by saying that they had to get a biopsy to see what it was, but not to worry... that she was sure it would be fine. My complexion must have changed because she said, "Why don’t you just leave your car here, and I will make arrangements to get it later, and I will run you home. Then we can do the biopsy tomorrow. We have a surgeon on staff and he said he could do it tomorrow."

I was speechless and just simply nodded. I knew right then what it feels like to know that life gives no guarantees, and a million things start running through your head.

Jen ran me back to her house where I had just left from, and I just went in and laid down. Knowing in my gut that I probably had something major going on... It became a real game changer, let me tell you. Many of you out there know exactly what I am talking about. I didn’t get much sleep that night, and the next morning came all too early. I mean, you want to know that everything is going to be cool, but like I said... deep down you already know. Real gut feelings usually don't lie!

AFTER THE DIAGNOSIS: 

I got to the hospital, and everything went okay with the whole procedure. But the waiting time to know the lab results was crushing. I really knew something was wrong when they were taking so long. Jen finally called with the news.

Yep, It was cancer.  But they didn't know what kind yet and needed to consult another lab. Man oh man... I felt like crap. Time seemed to come to a standstill as the minutes ticked off the clock. No answer came the first day, then it went into another day... and then another day. I was mentally blown with anxiety.

Finally, we got the call. It was a very rare type of cancer. I was told that I had a fair chance of beating it, but that I would have it forever. It could go into remission, but it could also come back at any time. Man... if that don’t put a knot in your shorts, I don’t know what will. I became mentally depressed, but tried to show bravery. I started noticing every single breath as I was mentally preparing myself for facing this crisis.

Jen told me that she would set me up with an oncologist, and she did. I actually got an appointment pretty quickly. I loved my oncologist! He really cared about you as a patient. He gave me his personal cell number and told me no matter what time it was, if I needed him, please call and he would answer immediately unless he was on the phone at that time. I did have one occasion to use that during the whole cancer shuffle, and he did what he said... he answered on the second ring, late at night even. I can probably count on one hand, using a single finger, the number of doctors in the US that would have that kind of care and concern about their patients. It is certainly not the norm.

To make a long story shorter... I went through the worst chemo treatment that was available... R-CHOP. It was not pretty. The chemo made you feel really bad and even made me pee blood. When I was through with the chemo, it had reduced my cancer way down in size, but there was a tiny part still left. My Oncologist wanted to get another biopsy to see if it was still the same type of cancer. So, they set me up with another surgeon, but not the same one that did the first biopsy.

After waking up, the surgeon told me that he didn't see any cancer where it was supposed to be, but took out another lump while he was in there. Well... that lump he removed happened to be a piece of my perfectly working pancreas.

Sounds like things got worse, doesn't it? Well, yeah... for a little bit there, I was in extreme pain. Took me a while in the hospital with a drain tube in me before they got the leaking pancreatic fluid to stop. Your pancreas doesn't regrow, by the way. It did heal shut though, thank goodness. I tried to sue, but all of the law firms I spoke with told me that it wasn't profitable enough for them to take the case! That was a serious WTF moment for me!! It has to be profitable enough for them to even help you out? Really? So, basically... everything is about the dollar… people!! Don’t forget that ok? That’s what our America has become!! Times have sure changed, and apparently... unless it is profitable enough, you can forget getting any help unless they can make enough money off of you!!

AFTER THE SURGERY MISTAKE: 

Anyhow... Cancer is a nasty thing that all humans are scared of, but I truly believe that getting cancer had something to do with our food supply. Processed foods, processed sugars, bio-engineered foods, seed oils... I could go on and on. I truly believe the turning point for my remission came when I drastically changed my diet: juicing organic fruits, vegetables, and herbs every morning.  Eating only organic, unprocessed foods. No more processed anything. I also only used organic olive oil and coconut oil to cook with and grass feed meats and dairy products.

Also, because of the damage to my pancreas, I had to give up just about all foods with carbs, and all sugars other than the sugar in fruits and natural things. No rice, pasta, breads, or white potatoes. I lost some weight also. This is the way I eat until this day, and my cancer is still in remission. I also take lots of vitamins as well, especially things that help your brain, because chemo brain is not cool. Made me feel like I was getting dementia. Since doing all of this, my blood work has been awesome!!

The Universe still hadn’t revealed any secrets to me as of yet. More trials to come...

Before making all of those changes in my diet and returning to my home state for good, I had gone back to see my Oncologist because of the supposedly remaining little glow, even though the surgeon didn't see any cancer that had cut out part of my pancreas. My oncologist gave me some more options for dealing with that little glow. That depressed me again greatly. While in my oncologist’s office, I made a comment in my depression... "Well, I guess I will just kill myself then, if cancer is going to do it anyways."

That single comment... despite my immediate reassurance to my oncologist that I would not actually do that... triggered a state law, which forced him to call the authorities and I was forced against my will into a psychiatric facility—the 'funny farm.'

That experience was a serious eye-opener. I won't go into the details about that experience, but once I got out, I found out that I had another issue which really blindsided me on top of what I had already experienced. And I won't go into the details of all of that either, but needless to say... It resulted in a divorce. A heck of a lot for a human being to go through for a couple of months... right?

AFTER THE "FUNNY FARM" / DIVORCE: 

So, I returned to my home state in a very low state of mind, and while I was searching the internet one evening, I came across this video on YouTube. I am one hundred percent positive that “God”—which I now refer to that entity as The Consciousness sent me to that video. The person talking was a very smart man, who I also mentioned in my Awareology content, and he was talking about his "Pre-Birth" experience that he had. After listening to him, I was blown away! WTF, I thought!

I stayed up all night doing searches about NDE's... Near Death Experiences. Like I had previously mentioned, I used to believe a certain way about spirituality, but this... changed everything. If this is true, I thought… It is the answer to everything! Over many more months of research, I knew that I was onto a truth that would give me relief from all of the mental pain and depression I was going through, because it explained why I was going through all of it!

My faith at that time certainly didn't help me one bit. I felt like “God” was just sitting up there watching me. I felt absolutely no comfort from what religion taught me about “God” whatsoever! This new discovery, however, made total sense as to why I was going through everything. It was my personal journey... which I chose.

All of the stuff I have been through in my life has led me up to this point. This very website. I was extremely inspired to put all of this together in hopes that it would help many other people see that all of the "bad" and "good" in your life is meant to happen... BUT... you do have choices. That is what Quantum Physics is all about and completely matches up with everything. All states exist at the same exact time. Meaning that The Consciousness made all possibilities exist at the same time, so no matter which choice you made, it could be reality, and therefore, The Consciousness, which we are part of, would get to experience it and become more “All Knowing” because your physical body experienced it. So... we DO have free will, in case you are wondering because all possibilities exist simultaneously.

Anyways... Continuing on… while I was doing some research, I was viewing a video online and it mentioned something about the attributes of "God" while comparing it to the Universe. It was the word "attributes" that made it click in my mind about "God" being "All Knowing". Right then, I became aware of what completed the puzzle for me. I had already known that humans have a body, soul, and spirit. I also already knew that my “soul” was the real me, because I was taught that your soul is what went to “heaven” in the religion that I used to be in. I wasn’t real sure about the spirit part, but like most people in that religion trap, I thought to myself... that really doesn’t matter so much as long as I know I am going to heaven.

But when that connection was made about “God” being “All Knowing”, it was like a light bulb was turned on! You CAN NOT become “All Knowing” unless you experience also. Like I gave the example in my Awareology content about the motorcycle: you can KNOW all about a particular motorcycle that you built. You can know it better than anything else you know... BUT, you cannot become “All Knowing” until you actually ride that motorcycle and experience it. It completes the circle, if you will!

The Consciousness, “God” can create, know, and do everything, but It cannot ride the motorcycle. So, in order for It to become “All Knowing” about everything, It needs souls. The souls have to be part of Itself so It can incarnate into physical beings everywhere, in order for It to become “All Knowing” about Its creations THROUGH all of those physical beings' experiences!

I was OVERJOYED! I felt like a GOD! Because at that time, I realized I am “God”. This truth answered every question. Then I thought... This is why the Universe goes on and on forever. The Consciousness, “God” incarnates into many life forms in order to become “All Knowing” concerning Its creations. If the Universe goes on forever as far as we know, then it would be insane not to think that there are certainly other life forms out there somewhere... right?

For the first time in my life, I was at total peace. I understood! And the fact that I had an opportunity to be born became a blessing, and dying was just the end of my journey. Like ending an amusement park ride of sorts. I still to this day deal with my human emotions while being alive... part of being human, I guess. However... I always return back to that single thought for an explanation... "It's just part of my chosen journey."

CONCLUSION:

I have continued my method of eating and taking care of myself, and it has kept my cancer in remission. My life finally cleared out enough so I could focus on creating this website. But I have to tell you... it was through my conversations with AI—Gemini—that helped me do all of the research necessary to be able to put it all together. I don't know what the rest of my journey will look like, but that is also one of those "moot points"... right? Whatever it is, it is meant for me according to the choices I make.

Thanks for your time to listen to my story. If you too have a story that you would like to share, please navigate to the contact page on the website and reach out. We would love to hear from you!!